Hiya and happy Tuesday ☀️ This is going to be one of the ha..
Added 2022-04-26 15:45:52 +0000 UTCHiya and happy Tuesday ☀️
This is going to be one of the harder posts I’ve ever done, so if you don’t care for all the mushy stuff, I’m not offended if ya keep scrolling :)
So here it goes….
The last few months I have been experiencing some of the worse depression I’ve trekked through in a long time, and despite all of my highs at the beginning of the year and not for any specific reason (that’s depression for ya huh?!), but definitely causing more and more reasons to have continued panic attacks and anxiety because I’m not being accountable or good to myself in literally anyway. Home, here, work, family, even with myself.
Now I am frozen, thinking of all the things I shoulda, woulda, coulda and it makes me literally sick and nauseous..
It feels like I ruin REALLY fucking good things every single time, because it’s almost like when things are going amazing, and I’m finally reaching a place in life I want to be, my brain is like…
**“nah…girl…we gone fuck this happiness and stability right up🤘🏼“**
Then I’m left trying to glue the pieces back together with off brand sugar free syrup…once my brains done being a scrambled dumpster fire for months..
I apologize for the sappy and uncomfortable post.
I don’t really like sharing these things here, but feel like many of you know more about me than most in people in real life (and known me longer lol), it also might help someone not feel so alone if they are experiencing similar.
I feel you!
You aren’t crazy…
You aren’t just “being sensitive”
We are stronger than many give us credit for, because we feel more emotions and still wake up the next day 🤍
Thank you each and everyone of you for this gift of being able to share and have this little corner of web.
