Can we talk for a little bit? I just kinda wanted to have an..

Can we talk for a little bit? I just kinda wanted to have an honest conversation with you guys about how I've been feeling lately and it's something I would really appreciate your feedback on. Lately I've been feeling really uninspired when it comes to content here, and a lot of it comes from how much I compare myself to other creators. Sometimes I see their posts and community feedback SOAR, and I just think in my head "what am I doing wrong?" I feel as though I've been stagnant lately, and that no matter how much thought I put into a set, it'll flop. I know that isn't true for some of them, but for example, the morning after set I posted didn't do too well, and I was SO excited and happy to make that, and now I just regret it.. So many of you have been so wonderful and vocal and helpful to me, and I will never forget that. But it just feels like whenever I'm in a rut and don't know what is going wrong, I don't hear any feedback on what you guys would like, and I just feel as though I'm back to square one and don't even want to post at all, ya know? I love love LOVE Everytime I hear the good and the bad from sets, because it helps me fine tune what I put out! But if I just get crickets, well, I just feel like an uninspired monster lmao. It's probably because my birthday is 9 days away, and I haven't even decided what I'm going to do for it yet. As most of you all know, it'll be my first birthday without my mom and it's already weighing on me that instead of enjoying it, I'll just end up sad all day and spending it alone. I was thinking about doing another amazon wishlist idea, but I'm afraid if I do that and it doesn't do well enough, I'll just be disappointed in myself again. I shot the maid set today, and while I feel like it is BONKERS, I don't know if you guys would be that into it. I made sure to shoot lots of video, pussy rubbing, and doggy style POV's to show off my gorilla grip pussy, but the idea of posting it and it flopping has me just so scared that y'all won't like it.. Am I just being stuck in my own head? I would really appreciate if you guys left me some.words of encouragement or advice..I love to hear from you and want to more often ❤️ maybe I am just being dumb, idk