Sometimes I look at a girl's ass and wonder how I’m not 100 ..

Sometimes I look at a girl's ass and wonder how I’m not 100 percent gay. Then someone sends me a video of their dick pumping cum, and I realize that dick trumps ass in most cases. Nature at its finest.

I wanted to write about last Friday. Some of you will hate this recap. It will seem extreme and over the top. So much went so perfectly for me but went so poorly for others that I didn’t want to throw salt in a wound. It’s Tuesday and both David and Ryan have different opinions on how things went. David is good with it now. He wasn’t saying so until last night. Of course, he didn’t have a cock in his mouth. His dick, however, was in Ryans's mouth. I put it there. Ryan wasn’t so happy about tasting the head of another man's dick. He said I pushed him into it by telling him if he didn’t do it we were through forever. He didn’t want us to be over, so he put his tongue in David’s cum hole when I told him to. In fairness to myself, I warned Ryan several times that if we did a threesome with David, his role would be the cuck. I also warned him more than a few times that if he didn’t do what I asked of him as a cuck, we would be forever done with each other. I gave him the option of backing out, and nothing would change between us. I would fuck him when I felt like it. He said he wanted to be a bigger part of my life, and he liked the idea of being my “sexual slave.” I told him I wasn’t interested in having a “sex slave,” just another good cuck like Scott. Ryan said he wanted to be that guy. I believe he really did, but reality sunk in when I was holding Davids's cock, pumping sperm into Ryans's open mouth, letting him swallow another man's cum. When I asked him how it felt to feel and taste cum, alive with swimmers, that just left the insides of another man's balls and whose cock is vastly superior to his own, he became visibly upset. Almost defeated. I truly thought he might cry. He didn’t. I could tell it was close, though. I think he wanted me to console him, which may be why he looked horrified when I started scooping the jizz off his chin into his mouth while I fingered myself. I made him suck my fingers while I rubbed myself to a quick but very powerful orgasm in front of both David and Ryan. It was the perfect fantasy that became a reality fuck session. Probably the most perfect one I have ever had because it was raw and unscripted. Ryan wanted consoling and reassurances about his manhood that I didn’t give. As far as I’m concerned, he has lost his manhood forever pertaining to sex. He has become a cuck. If he accepts his role, he will have more sex than he ever dreamed of. If he rejects it, we are through. There is no turning back, no going back to the way things used to be. When I placed David’s dick in his hands and told him to stroke him hard for me….the first stroke he gave David’s dick changed his role in my life forever. The look of confusion on Ryan’s face as he looked at another man's dick in his hands was priceless. The humiliated and defeated look he got when I made him jerk his own dick off and empty his balls onto my stomach and eat his own sperm off of me while David watched produced a high for me better than any drug ever could. Two minutes after he ate his own cum is when I knew things may have gone too far for Ryan. Honestly, I didn’t care, nor do I now. If Ryan said he’s done with me forever, I’m good with that. I will always have the memory of him putting David’s cock in my pussy while I sat on top of David. I would prefer he stay in my life, but I can no longer accept him in any other way than to be my cum eating cuckold. It’s the same thing with Scott. As selfish as it sounds, I am not going to change, no matter how strong the attraction or love may be. I will continue to have my boy toys and my cucks. Hopefully, Ryan will continue to stay in my life. He said yesterday he isn’t gay and he isn’t attracted to men. I believe him 100 percent. I have no doubt Ryan is all about women. I also reminded him that his dick was hard even when he had David’s dick in his mouth. I reminded him he popped a load of cum while David split me in two with his massive cock without ever being touched by anyone, including himself. He may not have liked being owned and controlled in the way that both David and myself pushed on him, but his dick did. Is it gay? Not in the least. It’s sex. It would be gay if they exchanged numbers, kissed goodbye, and skipped off happily into the night. That’s now how the night ended. It ended with me ordering Ryan to take David’s keys, start his car for him, and then thank him for fucking me in ways he never could. Then, when were alone, I had Ryan watch as I masturbated and told him how good he looked doing all the things I asked him to do. Ryan left the house with a hard dick. Sadly, he ghosted me until yesterday. David ghosted me until Sunday. David said he was nervous about it, but now it’s all he can think about, and he is ready to do it again anytime I want. Ryan, well, he’s on the fence if you listen to him. He says he has a lot of emotional things going on about his role in Friday night's fun. He said he has a hard time looking at himself in the mirror. But he kept looking for reassurance that I was okay with it. What a dumbass. I was the one who rubbed one out, thinking and talking about it in front of him. I have seen this before, his mind is saying no, but his dick is ready to do it all over again right now. 99 times out of a 100…the dick wins. Sorry for the novel and sorry for being vague on the details…I am treading tricky waters here as whether they both admit it or not, I’m pretty positive they are subscribers and read every word I write. It’s easy to spot when I talk with them. Now everyone knows. It’s better that way.